My Little Redneck

Grady badly needed a haircut. Little did I know he would end up with tan lines like these!!!

He is so light complected he just turns red when he gets any sun at all. He got this way while fishing at Granny's yesterday with Tristan.....the fishermen struck gold again, catching 3 catfish and 27 blue gill. Granny was stuck cleaning them all. I think the boys are ready for a fish fry!

Our Memorial Day Weekend

It seems like lately we haven't been able to do anything but get home, cook, clean up, bathe and go to bed, just to get up in the morning and do it all over again. This weekend, whether shadowed with the events of the previous week or not, was fun and very relaxing.

Saturday night Doug, Kelly and Sadie came over for a visit and brought us supper. The guys went out fishing and came home with 2 whole fish. I think they did more drinking than fishing.

Chris got up early on Sunday and worked in the garden. It has been so wet, he couldn't till up the rows. So he finally did that and ridged the potato rows. Grady 'helped.' He also found a few tasty treats!!

When the gardening was done, we went to my parents house for lunch. No one was hungry and it ended up being a late lunch/early supper. Steaks, YUM!!! The little boys couldn't resist swimming. I think it is about time to think about putting the pool up....if it would stay dry for more than one day!

Grady and Tristan showed the fishermen from Saturday night up. Really goes to show how many more fish you can catch without beer. Grady had the first catch of the day with a bass and then a catfish to follow. The first picture you can tell how proud he is, but the second one.....not so much. He even told me one time, "You can take a picture of the fish, but not me."


Tristan got some help from his dad reeling in his blue gill. I don't have any pictures of him with his fish. He was so excited!! But, he didn't have any clothes on!!! He was too busy getting ready to fish to worry about clothes when he got done swimming!

Poor Granny had to pedal those two all over the pond for just the right spot to do some more fishing. They looked like professionals out there!

They hadn't went very far at all and T-Bone said, "I got sumfing, Granny!!" Sure enough, he got a bass. Finally the child had some undies on so Aunt Aubbie could share his picture!

Altogether, there were 12 fish caught. The boys caught all but 2 or 3 of them. For some reason they kept making this face at me. I just figured it was like that Home Alone kid......AHHH.....Granny is killing our fish!!

Grady kept falling asleep on the way home. 5 o'clock is not a good time to be going to sleep. I kept trying to keep him awake and got him laughing about something...just thought it was too cute of a picture not to share.

Monday, Chris's mom and I went to Terre Haute shopping. Not for any particular thing, just some retail therapy. Lord, did I need it!! I had a good day and enjoyed our trip. Last night, Grady was wanting to do puzzles. I didn't want to sit at the table and do them, so we tried out Papa's step stool he made Grady as a little tray. Now, he must eat at it and do coloring pages at it and it is probably not going to make it back to the bathroom where it belongs.

It was a great weekend that did me some good. Hopefully this week keeps sunny and warm and is just as good as the last few days were.

I'm having a party

I guess I am back tracking, but I didn't really have the time or energy nor did I really want to lay out a whole big pity party for me and my family on here last week.

So, since I am officially having the aforementioned pity party, I'm just gonna lay it all out.

My uncle had heart bypass surgery last week. 6 bypasses. 6!! It is just a miracle he was even alive to have the surgery. Amazingly, he came home only a few days later. Sore, but home.

My husband had been having terrible indigestion and heartburn with chest pains. He went Monday for a wonderful Barium milkshake Upper GI and an ultrasound of his gallbladder. We found out Wednesday (not a good day) that he has a Hiatal Hernia that may require surgery if medication doesn't help his symptoms.

And then there's me......I had a D & C yesterday. To say the least, it was not as bad as I had originally thought it would be. I still feel guilty and unsure of my decision to go that route, but patience is not one of my virtues and I could not just sit in anticipation of the actual miscarriage. I was told, in my situation, it could possibly take 2 weeks for the baby to miscarry on its own. Not exactly something I wanted to wait and find out. I couldn't have went for groceries without thinking 'is it gonna happen in line at the IGA.'

Grady is still a little confused. He thinks if we pray hard enough that God will let us have our baby back. Poor guy. I don't know exactly how to explain to him that we will just have to wait and see if we can get another one a little further down the road.

Alright, I think I have bored everyone to tears hearing about all my problems.....but, before I quit writing, I just want to thank everyone for the meals, calls, prayers, emails, and words of encouragement I have gotten over the past week. They mean so much and have helped tremendously.

I don't know if she reads this or not, but Kelly, you have been my saving grace. I wouldn't have wished any of the heartache you have endured on my worst enemy, but I am thankful that you have been through this type of situation and are able to say just the right thing when I need to hear it and make me laugh about touchy matters (you know what they are) when it counted. I love you!

Last, but not least, Mom, Dad and Chris. What do I say? I'm sorry. That's what I really want to say because I feel like I have let you all down. This pregnancy was something that had brought us all closer in the last 2 months. I am so very happy to have done that for us, but feel guilty for not being able to carry it through. These emotions are something I will be working on myself for quite a while, I'm sure. Truthfully though, THANK YOU so much for being there for me. Driving me to Effingham, taking care of Grady when I couldn't and just giving me the hugs and space at the times when I needed either of them. I don't know how I can ever repay those gestures. Time will ultimately heal, but until that time passes, I am glad you are here for me. I love you guys so much and am proud to call you my family.

Okay, that's it.......party's over......for now.

Why?

Blogging is supposed to be theraputic. Somehow, I don't see this helping.



It all started Tuesday morning. I got up to pee and there it was. When you're pregnant not something you want to see.



Yesterday the doctors said my numbers were good and the baby had a heartbeat, low, but there.



Today, the world came crashing in on me.



There was no heartbeat. Nothing. Gone.



So, yes that ends the story of baby number 2.



I am devastated, broken down and feeling like I'm to blame. I know I shouldn't, but being the sole provider for that baby, it's hard not to. I'm not the first person to lose a baby, nor will I be the last.



It just hurts. And I don't see it ending anytime soon.



I think worst of all was telling Grady. He just doesn't know why God took his new baby and wants it back in momma's belly. He has been so sweet to me and knows just when to throw in the I love you's.



We will try again....hopefully with a better outcome.

People Magazine, How I Miss You

Apparently this is the cover of the magazine that should have been in my mailbox this Friday.

I got all "Let's save money and not renew my subscription" about a month too early. Now I'm regretting it.

I don't know how to feel about this. I am a loyal viewer of their show. I thought I liked Kate until the last few episodes last season. She just seems a little bitchy. But, who in their right mind with that many little children shouldn't be bitchy from time to time.

People has quite a run-down on the goings on in the Gosselin saga on their website www.people.com .

Just a quick question...

WHEN IS IT GONNA STOP RAINING?????

Worth the Wait

I have once again neglected my blog duties.

I'm sure all my readers have been sitting idly by just waiting to see what's been keeping me away for so long.

I hope that this post doesn't disappoint.

Grady is going to be a big brother!!!!

Our new addition will make its debut late this year. We are super excited and truly blessed to be able to be bringing a new baby into our family.

Best of all, Grady wants a little sister. Who woulda thunk it?